(day two) today i woke up late and even though i said i wouldn't eat breakfast, i did have a lil' something before my workout! i had a crêpe with nutella and a sliced peach. today's workout was quite the hoot! i began with a stretch (with aaptiv) that targeted my shoulders, hip flexors, and my hamstrings. i then proceeded to do some work on my legs/butt. i did a short core emom (every minute on the minute) workout (with aaptiv) that included mountain climbers, planks, crunches, toe touches, and flutter kicks. then i did a (beginner, because i totally wimped out on an advanced one) elliptical workout that had me sweating! for (late) lunch, i had chicken with goat cheese, zucchini, mushrooms, and sweet potato fries! (so good, so filling! to be quite honest, i'm feeling some discomfort and i can't tell if it's hunger or if it's cramps.) my body hurts like a mf but i feel so good! after lunch, i did some organizing, cleaning, and i even did the dishes! i finished a lot more college stuff than i anticipated, so i'll probably do more until i get hungry. after dinner (which will probably be chicken with goat cheese and sweet potato fries and red pepper), i'm going to work on some embroidery for a while. then i'm going to go to bed and start on my summer reading. i am so happy with my productivity!
while this is already excessively long, i just wanted to talk about one more topic before i go. a while back, my ex (yes, that ex) contacted me and we facetimed, clearing up whatever there was between us. after that, we didn't talk again. a few days ago, he texted me 'hi'. harmless, right? i didn't answer. why? part of me becoming my best self is surrounding myself with creative, kind, supportive, positive, and open-minded people. for a time, i thought of him as a positive force in my life. it's taken me a long time to decide that he is not what i thought he was, and it's taken me a long time to make peace with the fact that he left my life. yesterday, he unblocked me from instagram and followed me and he added me on snapchat (i didn't follow or add him back.). he's a great guy, but i do not want him in my life anymore. he chose to leave, so i get to choose if i let him back in. for a long time, i used to hate him. any mention of him used to make my heart break and my blood boil. but on this journey of becoming my best self, i have made it a goal to not hold any hate for anyone in my heart. as dodie said in her veda video today, why should you feel pain and jealousy and hurt towards someone you used to love? so i no longer feel hateful towards him, but i do love myself more to know that he is no longer a positive force in my life; therefore, he does not deserve to be in my life anymore.
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